Five.

So this is my first blog post in almost a year. I'm not 19 years old. This birthday was just as dramatic and ridiculous as my 18th was. The same friend who was going to disinvite himself last year almost didn't come this year. He's really a big whiny bastard and sometimes I really don't like him, but when it comes down to it, I care about him more then most people in the world. It's kind of pathetic how I can't just say goodbye to him for good. I think I'll start using this blog more often, because none of my friends know about it so I can vent about everything that is bugging me about everyone and I'll be happy. My best friend is seeing this guy right now, she JUST broke up with her boyfriend of 2 and a half years and now she's already seeing some new guy. I don't really know what to think about it, I mean, she's slept with 2 guys since her and her boyfriend broke up. It's a really bad situation though, because her ex is going psycho on her. She lives with him, and he's being a total jerk to her. Like it's fucking nuts the things he's doing, and I'm really scared for her life. Like, he's a big guy, he could hurt her. He already has, and I'm scared he's going to come home wasted one night and just flip out on her and kill her. She needs to get out of there as soon as she can. Anyways, back to me. My life right now is so weird. I don't really know what to think. I don't really know who I am anymore. And I don't really know if I want a relationship or anything. There are a few guys who like me, but the one guy I like lives 2 and a half hours away from me. Which would be really hard to deal with, but I think if it was worth it, it'd be ok. My best friend is on her way over here right now because her ex is flipping out. GOD he's such an ass. I want to go and like punch him in the face but I know I can't =( I should go. Till next time.
xoxo.babygirl