Twenty.

What do you say to someone who doesn't want to hear it? I know why they are all mad. I know what she wants me to say, but is it worth it? Is it going to matter? Is it going to change anything? I leave in a week to go to a random place I've never lived before in my entire life. I won't have them, I'll only have three people. Three people to help me. And one of them has never lived in this place himself! So that's no help. So what do I say to them? What do I say to make them understand? What do I do to make it better? Okay, maybe this weekend was a stupid decision. I honestly didn't think anyone was going to react that badly to it, except you. But I figured you and I could've still gone out and gotten breakfast or lunch or dinner, like you had wanted to. When you saw me, you didn't even mention that! You were wrapped up in the fact she was there. And now you're playing this big mind game with me! It's so stupid! I can't even stand it! And you, I didn't think you would've cared AT ALL! Apparently, I was wrong. He should've cared but he even took the time to come and see me! Does that mean that he's the only one that cares? Or... I don't even know. I miss you guys. I know we're not as close as we all once were, but I miss you. I want you guys in my life, I need you guys as a support system, even though you're not a 20 minute bus ride away. How do I tell you this? You don't even care.